I began writing my book, called Sex, Lies, and Two Hindu Gurus — I Will Not Keep Their Secrets, one month after discovering that my two gurus were not the saintly, God realized men they professed to be — but were instead the diametric opposite. To make sense of the crushing reality I encountered after 14 years in the gurus’ U.S. ashram, I started writing a journal. The first entry in my journal sums up my living nightmare:
“All I’ve wanted my whole life is to find God. Now I think I’ve found the Devil.”
That was July 2007. I continued to write in my journal until I moved out of the ashram on April 20th, 2008. I stayed in the ashram for those 10 months in order to witness the organization through a new lens. Instead of the blind-faithful, devoted follower of the gurus, I was now an eyes-wide-open observer of their bad behavior.
My journal notes during those months provided the foundation for the book I would write once I moved out of what I now knew was an evil cult. Three years after leaving the organization I had written a complete first draft of the book.
The book tells my story in seven parts. See my blog post about the outline of my book and other interesting insights about this book — which exposes the behind-the-scenes livestyle of a twisted unnatural world created by two fake gurus: a world few people will ever experience.
I am currently looking for a literary agent and publisher for this project.