Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Three Stories Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat Doesn’t Want You to Know Aboutthe Tragic Ending of Three Good People

JKP Tries to Spin-Doctor and Distance Itself from People Who Did Nothing But Give — Their Faith, Their Money, and Their Lives


There are so many sad stories that have come out of Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat — stories of young girls being raped, people abandoning their families to join JKP and serve the fake gurus full-time, and people giving up their life savings to Kripalu Maharaj’s insatiable corrupt operation.

Among the never-ending trail of stories of exploitation in JKP, some tragic stories get lost. I’m going to share three of the forgotten stories of JKP devotees who suffered greatly at the hands of this dangerous organization.

These are the stories of people who attempted to commit suicide as a result of the actions of JKP. One successfully killed herself. Another is believed to have been successful. And one was not, but suffered tragically for the rest of her life.

These stories are difficult to tell, because they make you realize how different these people’s lives could have been if they had never gotten involved with JKP. But they are important stories to tell because they show yet another side to this greedy, cold-hearted, self-serving corruption factory, which takes people in, chews them up, and spits them out.

Lesley — The Girl Who Wanted to Be a Preacher


A rare photo of the woman believed to be Lesley, who attempted suicide after being sexually abused by Prakashanand and others in India while studying to be a preacher.

When I joined JKP (called ISDL in the U.S. back then), I heard hushed stories about a girl named Lesley who had become a quadriplegic after leaving Prakashanand Saraswati. Like a few other young Western women in his small band of followers, she had been training to be a preacher. Part of the training included a trip to India to study in Prakash’s ashram. Included in the trip Lesley went on was the woman who came to be called Prabhakari (aka Priya Dasi), and the woman who came to be called Nikhileshwari (aka Hari Dasi).

The rumor coming out of JKP was that Lesley had become sexually involved with young Indian men while in India. Allegedly Prakash had called her father and told him to fly her back home. When she returned, she began indulging in the material world. On a skiing trip she had an accident and became a quadriplegic.

However, that was just the spin-doctored story JKP wanted people to believe. It put fear in several devotees I knew, because they believed that Lesley’s indiscretions and spiritual transgressions led to her horrible accident.

Later, when I left JKP, I learned the truth. While in India studying to be a preacher, two men lured Lesley into their beds: Prakash and the father of one of Kripalu’s preachers. (Note: This was the same trip where Prabhakari was infamously lured into Kripalu’s bed and came out of the experienced in shock. She searched her soul to decide whether she should stay or leave. She decided to stay. Her action resulted in the proverbial “selling her soul to the devil.”)

Lesley was so upset by the sexual experiences that she became anxious and despondent. That’s when Prakash set her home, effectively washing his hands of her. Her depression continued when she returned hom to the point that she attempted to kill herself by driving into a brick wall. But she didn’t die. She lost the use of her legs and arms instead.

The last time anyone I know saw Lesley was when she showed up in a wheelchair at a lecture Prabhakari was giving near her home in Central California. Prabhakari barely acknowledged Lesley’s presence.

If anyone knows how to contact Lesley, please let me know.

Atsimba — The Woman Who Loved God too Much


For a period of time, the preacher known as Nikhileshwari was studying Spanish and planning trips to Mexico to recruit followers. During this time, she met a Spanish woman in California named Atsimba. The woman usually accompanied Nikhileshwari on her trips to Mexico, trips which rarely netted any new blood.

The woman was married to a white man and had no children. She was deeply religious and once she got in deep with JKP through Prakash, she brought her mother and friends to him as well. Her husband was slow to get on board, but eventually did — especially after her death.

Atsimba was one of the people who went on several trips to India. I guessed that she was “in love” with Kripalu from a video I saw, in which she was dancing for him in some prayer hall in India.

She frequently visited Barsana Dham, where I lived full-time. When there, she spent a lot of time with Nikhileshwari.

In the beginning, Atsimba was a very healthy woman who could be described as a little plump. She was by no means fat. But she began to drop weight and soon became extremely thin. One day Prakash asked her what diet she was on. When she told him what she ate, which was mostly just beans, he said jokingly he was going on the same diet.

On one trip to the ashram, I couldn’t help but notice how upset Atsimba was. She seemed to be “wrapped too tight,” as they say about people who see to be extremely mentally troubled. At one point, I was talking to Nikhileshwari in her bedroom and there was knock on the door. It was Atsimba. Her eyes were wide and she couldn’t focus. She was visibly upset and seemed ready to jump out of her skin.

“I have to talk to you,” she blurted to Nikhileshwari.

“Karen, please go. We’ll talk later,” Nikhileshwari said abruptly and ushered me out of the room quickly, closing the door after I left.

I remembered this incident clearly the day Prabhakari gathered the ashram devotees together in Prakash’s sitting room for an important announcement. She proceeded to tell us a convoluted story about how Atsimba had been a troubled woman since childhood, because she was a victim of sex abuse.

Then she said that Atsimba had died by the ocean near her home in California. Prabhakari said that Prakash said to tell us she “fell off of a cliff.” But the erratic delivery of the information and several strange comments Prabhakari made, led me to only one possible conclusion. Atsimba had jumped off the cliff and killed herself purposely.

After I learned the truth about JKP, the fake gurus, and their obsession with sex, and after I came out of my cult reality-distortion fog, I could easily see the facts for what they were.

Atsimba had been having sex with Kripalu whenever she visited India. She had lost so much weight because all the women involved with Kripalu know that he prefers skinny women. So she lost weight to please him. He may have even called her fat, since this was a common commentary he would make about women who were not rail thin.

Since she was a good person at heart, Atsimba felt extreme guilt about “cheating” on her husband. Nikhileshwari was in charge of trying to calm her down and make her understand that it was not like sex with a worldly man. It was sex with her “divine husband,” Krishna, who appeared on earth as Kripalu.

Shortly after her death, Prakash convinced her husband to move to Barsana Dham, thereby seemingly making an effort to mitigate any future issues if he were to ever learn the truth about the secrets that drove his wife to suicide.

Abe — A Man Who Placed His Faith in Two Conmen Posing as Gurus


(Note: This story was written by Fionn O Grada, an ex-JKP devotee and a long-time friend of Abe’s, with the approval of Abe’s family members.)


Abe Donovan (in striped shirt) and Fionn O Grada. Abe is believed to have killed himself after learning about Prakashanand Saraswati's conviction for child sex abuse.

Abraham Donovan (“Abe”) has been missing since April 18, 2011. Many of us will remember Abe as a kind-natured Irish man who loved music and unfortunately put too much faith in the “gurus” of JKP.

Abe had been a faithful devotee of JKP for over 20 years. He was the kindest, most sincere spiritual seeker you could meet. Abe was not feeling well (mentally) in April 2011, right after Prakash’s trial. There is strong evidence to suggest that he took his own life.

Abe’s family and friends believe that the harm caused by his long association with JKP adversely affected his judgment and ability to make sensible decisions affecting his own safety and interest. Like so many others, Abe’s trusting nature was exploited, and JKP fleeced him of his financial resources. When he disappeared in April 2011, he was virtually penniless and in debt to JKP who continued to make utterly irresponsible financial demands of him.

Abe was a highly accomplished classical guitarist. He taught the guitar in many institutions such as Walton’s School of Music in Dublin and in recent years in The King’s Hospital School in Dublin. Due to his skill, wonderful humour, and unique patience, Abe endeared himself to his many students. Abe devised his own method to teach the guitar. Abe was friends with many other musicians and was a member of the short-lived Guitar Orchestra of Dublin in the 1980s.

His own recitals were a joy to attend due to his musicianship, communication skills, and warmth. Abe admired all great guitarists. He attended concerts by great players such as John Williams and Segovia. Treasured memories of Abe include going with him to two Cooney and Begley concerts in the Harcourt Hotel in Dublin. Abe introduced me to the virtuoso guitar playing of Steve Cooney, which enthralled him, and he was also a great fan of Rory Gallagher.

Abe was 50 in 2011. From his 20s Abe was a committed vegetarian. He made the first of many trips to Barsana Dham U.S.A. in 1996, and from 2004 onwards he made several trips to Mangarh, India. On his last trip to Mangarh in late 2010, instead of giving him practical advice to get his life in order, JKP continued to relieve him of his money and to subject him to intense “love-bombing.”

In Dublin, shortly before he disappeared he told his brother-in-law Glen that a visit to a cyber cafe had greatly upset him. In tears he told Glen that he had discovered on the Internet that a lady devotee of JKP, who had been a friend of his, had taken her own life (note: I am not sure who this person is). In March 2011, shortly before he vanished, Abe had become aware of the criminal conviction of Prakash. He made a few comments to a couple of people that indicated his confused state-of-mind.

Abe’s family regrets deeply that he ever came under the influence of JKP. However, his family knows that their dear Abe was a sincere lover of God who never harmed anyone. They are grateful for all the expressions of solidarity and sympathy following his disappearance. They will continue to draw attention to his missing status and are planning to organise a gathering of family and friends at a future date.

Abe has been officially registered with the Irish Police as a missing person. His family and the Irish Police continue to appeal to anyone who might have information on his whereabouts to telephone Store Street Police Station in Dublin at 353-1-16668000 or to send an e-mail to missing_persons@garda.ie.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

“The Truth Project for Barsana Dham and JKP” on Facebook is Now Defunct— My Blog Will Now Tell the Truth About Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat

RishikaXcult.com Delivers In-Depth and Insightful Coverage of the JKP Cult — As Well As Inspirational Essays About Spiritual and Life Transformation


This Rishikaxcult.com blog, along with my book, are now the main sources for learning the truth about Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat. These are more sophisticated information delivery systems than The Truth Project for Barsana Dham and JKP on Facebook (which is now defunct).

In August 2010, I started a Facebook page called “The Truth Project for Barsana Dham and JKP.” I created this Facebook page to share the truth about JKP, Kripalu Maharaj, and Prakashanand Saraswati. Its purpose was to cut through JKP’s ongoing propaganda and lies — and share what was really going on.

I used the word “Project," because the page was just that: A project to share the truth with those who wanted to know it. The word “project” speaks to a specific task that has a beginning and an end. The beginning of my project was August 2010 and the end was August 2012.

The Truth Project Accomplished Three Significant Results


The two-year project was a huge success — better even that I could have ever predicted when I started it with just a handful of followers. Here is what The Truth Project accomplished in just 24 months:

1. The Truth Project grew beyond my expectations, reaching people around the world who wanted to know the truth about Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat. The Facebook page had many likes, but many more people who regularly read it without clicking the “Like” button. Many of the followers contacted me privately with words of thanks, encouragement, and new insights into the truth about JKP.

2. The information I shared on The Truth Project helped many ex-devotees better understand the spiritual con game in which they had been trapped, and it made them feel less alone in the world. That was one of my main goals when I learned the truth about JKP – I wanted to give ex-devotees a sense of solidarity instead of isolation. I’m happy to report that The Truth Project helped accomplish this goal.

3. Thanks to The Truth Project, I made several significant connections with JKP insiders, who had information to share with me. Some of that insider information changed the course of history at JKP for good – including being able to catch Prakashanand in Austin in early October 2011, when his lawyers were telling Hays County prosecutors that he could not fly from India to the U.S. due to illness. (Note: All of my contacts shall forever remain anonymous, unless they wish to reveal themselves.)

“The Truth Project” Reaches the Next Level — in a Book and a Blog


The Truth Project accomplished so much. However, it was a “Project” as the name implied. And now it’s time to take the Project to the next level — in my book and my blog.

For one thing, while Facebook is an acceptable general social media avenue, it has several serious flaws, including the fact that it is not a dependable vehicle to reach people. This flaw became even more pronounced last summer. Simply stated, Facebook only delivers page updates to about 10% of the people who “Like” a page. The reason for this low delivery percentage is that Facebook wants to charge people a fee to reach 100% of the people who “Like” each page. These costs are prohibitive for the average small business and non-profit, like myself.

A better, and much more sophisticated, way to reach 100% of the people who want to receive specific information is through a blog. The people who sign up on blogs will receive the updates 100% of the time (unlike on Facebook).

After contemplating Facebook’s disadvantages, I chose to move The Truth Project to my existing blog. I own this site, so sharing information is now under my control, versus under the control of Facebook.

My Supporters Stand Up for Me — and for The Truth About JKP


Many of the regular readers of The Truth Project were upset when it abruptly disappeared. I had notified the people who “Liked” the page of an upcoming change, but I had no way to notify the people who had never clicked the “Like” button. (At the time, I was mulling over changing the name of the page, since Barsana Dham ashram’s name had been changed to Radha Madhav Dham after Prakashanand escaped. But then I made the decision that my blog would be a more dependable delivery medium.)

After the page went down, I was very touched when so many people reached out to me, worried about what had happened to the original The Truth Project on Facebook. The primary reason for their distress was that JKP had immediately taken over the name and created a fake Facebook page. My supporters were concerned both about me personally and about the future of The Truth Project. I explained to them individually what had happened.

The bogus Facebook page is administered by someone with a fake name — apparently he or she is too ashamed to use his or her real name. There are allegedly many followers to this artificial Facebook page. However, JKP has another Facebook page, which is in support of Prakashanand. That page is administered by a man in Ireland, named David C., who is in his early 20s. Interestingly, the statistics for that Facebook page reported that the greatest concentration of people who “Liked” the page were people from Ireland in their early 20s. What this tells me is that David himself made up a bunch of fake Facebook pages, which he then used to “Like” his page. I assume the same is happening with the bogus Truth Project.

RishikaXcult.com is Already Attracting Many Followers


Already my blog, Rishikaxcult.com, has attracted many people who have signed up to receive regular updates. I’m hoping to expand membership to others who want to know the truth about the JKP cult, better understand cult tactics in general, and gain inspiration after living through a traumatic experience. The essays about transformation will celebrate our journey on this planet as both spiritual and physical beings.

Along with my blog, I have also published a website for my memoir, www.sexliesandtwohindugurus.com. I also maintain two Facebook pages for people who prefer to get updates on that social medium: Rishika Xcult and Sex, Lies, and Two Hindu Gurus. I know that those who want to find me will definitely find me — and when they find me, they will find the truht.

That is the whole story of The Truth Project for Barsana Dham and JKP — now and forever a book and a blog!

I hope to hear from you on one of my sites. Also, I’m always available by email at rishikaxcult at gmail dot com.

Best wishes to everyone! Thank you for reading and caring.

Karen (aka Rishika)

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

The Guru War — Notorious Historical Recreationist Kripalu MaharajDisowns Prakashanand Saraswati, Claiming He’s a Disciple of Guru Dev

The Truth About the Accused Rapist’s and the Convicted Felon’s 60-Year Love-Hate Relationship


Photo taken of Kripalu Maharaj and Prakashanand Saraswati when Kripalu visited Barsana Dham in 2007. Prakashanand built the ashram, renamed Radha Madhav Dham after his escape from justice, for Kripalu, his guru for 60 years.

Prakashanand Saraswati is a notorious person among members of the transcendental meditation community who were in Fairfield, Iowa, in the 1980s. That’s when he arrived in the U.S., and tried to recruit followers away from the Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, founder of TM. In one infamous advertisement, Prakashanand even equated the Maharishi to Satan and in lectures claimed he was “bringing people into darkness.”

It was a curious comment, since he and the Maharisihi briefly shared a guru in the 1950s — the Jagadguru Shankaracharya Brahmanand Saraswati, known as Guru Dev. He was the Shankarcharya of Jyotirmath, a very prestigious religious seat in India. The Maharishi was his secretary for many years, until Guru Dev died in 1952.

Prakashanand Lies About His Past


As for Prakashanand, according to his official biography, he claims he was offered the guru’s official seat, even though he was only 22 and had known him for less than two years. What’s more, there were several official successors to the seat. Nonetheless, here’s how Prakashanand stated his version of history in his bio:

“At the age of twenty-one, in 1950, he (Prakashanand) renounced the world and went to Jyotirmath in the Himalayas. In 1951 he took the order of sanyas. Seeing his esteem of renunciation and deep feeling of God consciousness, in 1952, he was offered to be the successor of Jagadguru Shankaracharya of Jyotirmath which is one of the most renowned religious thrones of India. He very politely refused by saying, ‘My final desire is to go to Vrindaban. I have given my life for the service of Radha Rani, so I cannot live forever in the math.’”

Four years later, Prakashanand met Kripalu Maharaj and instantly became his devotee. Kripalu welcomed Prakashanand into his fledgling “spiritual” organization, recognizing a fellow conman when he saw one. The two had a love-hate relationship over the next 60 years as they both struggled to build a following. But it was all love between them when Prakashanand began bringing his devotees to Kripalu in late 1999.

Prakashanand had a relatively small following compared to many gurus who come to the U.S. However, most of his “devotees” were ready to hand over large sums of money to Kripalu, who was billed as “God incarnate,” specifically “the incarnation of Radha-Krishna,” but who cared a lot about cold hard cash — as well as the warm bodies of women and girl. Kripalu was nearly salivating as so much Western money began flowing into his coffers (India-based trusts) and helping him build massive temples, along with the many new women and underage girls he welcomed into his bed.

Notable among the most wealthy of Prakashanand’s small group of Western followers were a handful of former TMers, three of whom were minting money in the infomercial trade and giving large sums of it to the gurus: Peter Spiegel, Katie Williams, and Marsha Kent.

The Fake Gurus' Con Game Grows in the 1990s


The two conmen’s business partnership flourished in the 2000s, culminating with the completion of the largest temple in Vrindaban, India, built by Prakashanand to glorify Kripalu. They spared no expense for the massive structure, importing marble from Italy and emerald pearl from China, among two of the many extravagances. The total bill for the building is estimated to be one billion dollars — all which was collected from followers who were told the money was going to “build hospitals.”

However, their illicit partnership was overshadowed by Prakashanand’s arrest in 2008 for molesting children who lived in is U.S. ashram, formerly called Barsana Dham (the name was changed to Radha Madhav Dham in April 2011). In March 2011, Prakashanand was convicted of his crimes, but before he could be sentenced, he ran for the border into Mexico and escaped from justice with the help of several of his followers.

A recent article in the Austin American-Statesman announced a report filed by the U.S. Marshals in September 2012 about Prakashanand’s escape into India. The details of the report were published on this blog.

Kripalu Lies about Prakashanand's Past


Twenty days after the article was published, Kripalu’s organization in India, called Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat, issued a press release denouncing all association with Prakashanand. The news article stated the following:
Jagadguru Kripalu Denies Link with Wanted Godman Prakashanand Saraswati

New Delhi, Oct.14 (ANI): A trust founded by Jagadguru Kripalu Ji Maharaj issued a statement over the weekend, refuting and rejecting suggestions and allegations of his link with wanted godman Swami Prakashanand Saraswati.

Saraswati has been declared a criminal in America, and a spokesman for the Jagadguru said that the spiritual leader was not in the habit of accepting or making disciples.

‘It is to be noted that Prakashanand Saraswati is a disciple of Jagadguru Shankaracharya Brahmanand Saraswati (a sanyasi). Jagadguru Kripalu Ji Maharaj is a family man and is a Vaishnava,’ the statement said.

According to the trust, several people in India and abroad claim to be their guru’s disciples, impressed by his actions and his ‘irrefutable devotion towards god.’

‘Under such circumstances, creating a misconception, and thereby, deluding the public by saying that a wanted criminal is his disciple or associated with any of the trusts functioning under his guidance, is definitely a condemnable action,’ the trust statement said.

This proclamation is, of course, a complete lie — easily refutable by anyone with an Internet connection. For example, use the Wayback Machine to find all the old website content such as this page.

The only person “deluding the public” is Kripalu himself, who has a very dark history, chronicled in my memoir, Sex, Lies, and Two Hindu Gurus — How I Was Conned by a Dangerous Cult — and Why I Will Not Keep Their Secrets.

Interestingly, but not surprisingly, at the same time as the release of the U.S. Marshal’s statement, the Radha Madhav Dham website deleted the last remaining evidence that Prakashanand had founded the ashram, including removing his books from the online bookstore.

No Love Between Criminals


Kripalu and Prakashanand are notorious historical recreationists -- spouting whatever nonsense fits there needs at the moment. What Prakashanand’s devotees think of this latest fraud perpetrated by Kripalu is anyone’s guess. They’ve shown a history of being in lockstep with the utterances of both deceptive and dangerous con men.

And, in fact, they’ve swallowed the new lie hook, line, and sinker as shown on a childish Facebook page where they *suddenly* started announcing that Guru Dev was actually Prakashanand’s guru. This cult would be a complete joke if it wasn’t so dangerous.

Learn more about the truth of Kripalu and Prakashanand — partners in crime for 60 years — in my book www.sexliesandtwohindugurus.com.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Who Aided and Abetted Prakashanand Saraswati’s Escape? U.S. MarshalsRelease Detailed Report

Saraswati is the “Foremost Devotee” of Kripalu Maharaj, Leader of Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat


Cover of U.S. Marshal's Affidavit relating to a search warrant of an email account that devotees likely used to communicate about helping Prakashanand Saraswati escape from the Texas, into Mexico, and then, nine months later, into India.

On September 14, 2012, the State of Texas issued a Search Warrant to access a particular Yahoo! Inc. email account — which they believed to be a source of “suspected place and premises property concealed and kept in violation of the laws of Texas.”

The email account is related to an individual or individuals involved with Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat. The U.S. Marshals researching the whereabouts of the convicted felon and fugitive from justice, Prakashanand Saraswati (long-time devotee of Kripalu Maharaj), have requested access to this account in their ongoing search for the missing pedophile.

The 12-page affidavit filed in support of the search warrant details just some of the activity and just some of the people involved in Prakashanand’s escape. However, it’s highly likely that many more followers were involved, all with different tasks, such as making phone calls, handling money, and securing false documents such as passports.

All in all, this document is a very interesting read. It shows the depths that blind-faith followers will sink to support their sociopath of choice, including breaking the law by aiding and abetting a fugitive — in this case Prakashanand. News of this affidavit was first reported by the Austin American-Statesman reporter who has been following the case since Prakashanand's arrest in April 2008.

Affidavit from the Texas U.S. Marshal’s Office


On March 4, 2011, Prakashanand Saraswati was convicted by a jury in Hays County, Texas on twenty counts of Indecency with a Child by Sexual Contact, a felony in violation of Texas Penal Code, Section 21.11. On March 07, 2011, Saraswati failed to appear in Hays County District Court for the sentencing phase of the trial, and at that time a Failure to Appear arrest warrant was issued by presiding 22nd Judicial District Judge, Charles Ramsay.

After Saraswati failed to appear Affiant began an investigation into his possible whereabouts with other members and U.S. Marshals assigned to the Lone Star Fugitive Task Force. Deputy United States Marshal, Robert Marcum, was assigned to the case on the federal level and your Affiant on the State level.

Since the investigation began it has revealed that on the evening of March 6, 2011, followers of Saraswati held a meeting at the residence of Marsha Kent in Driftwood, Hays County, TX. Saraswarti is a leader for a religious organization based out of India called Jagadguru Kripalu Prishat (JKP) and is the founder of the International Society of Divine Love. Prior to being convicted of the sex offenses described above, Saraswati was the leader of the temple formerly known as Barsana Dham (currently Radha Madhav Dham) in Austin, Hays County, TX. The primary leader of JKP is an individual named Kripalu Maharaj. Followers of Saraswati discussed details of a plan at this meeting to take Saraswati to Mexico before his sentencing hearing the following day.

Followers Given Cash and "Dump" Phones to Help Saraswati Escape


On March 10, 2011, three days following Saraswati’s failure to appear, U.S. Marshals Service personnel interviewed a known follower of Saraswati named Ethan DeMitchell in Greenacres, FL. DeMitchell stated that he had spoken to a known follower of Saraswati named Allison Conn-Caffaro (alias Chitra Devi) on the phone four times that week from two Nuevo Laredo phone numbers. DeMitchell advised Conn-Caffaro called him from Mexico pleading for him to come to Mexico to assist her in helping Saraswati evade law enforcement. DeMitchell stated that a follower of Saraswati named Vishwambhari Devi (formerly Ranjana) was also present with Conn-Caffaro in Mexico. DeMitchell stated that Devi is the personal aide to Saraswati. DeMitchell stated that he spoke with Saraswati on the phone after speaking with Conn-Caffaro. DeMitchell stated Saraswati re-iterated the statements made by Conn-Caffaro.

DeMitchell was discovered to be in possession of $5,000 during the interview. DeMitchell stated that he was instructed to use this money to purchase a fake passport so that Saraswati could flee Mexico to India. DeMitchell stated he was working with others in Radha Madhav Dham to assist Saraswati in his flight from law enforcement. DeMitchell further stated that he was attempting to contact two private charter jets companies for the purpose of flying Saraswati out of Mexico and into India. The names of those two companies provided by DeMitchell are ElleJet Aviation Services and Blue Star Jets, LLC. DeMitchell stated that he was under instruction to continuously use more that one “dump” phone to switch SIM cards in order to evade detection by law enforcement. DeMitchell provided Deputy U.S. Marshals with two T-Mobile SIM cards to be used for this purpose.

At the end of the interview with DeMitchell, a known follower of Saraswati named Adolf Tonnessen arrived at the location. Tonnessen verified the statements made by DeMitchell regarding Conn-Caffaro as well as the plan to secure a fake passport for Saraswati. Tonnessen was also found to be in possession of $5,000 and several pre-paid phones. Tonnessen is a father of two of the victims in the Indecency with a Child by Sexual Contact case. Tonnessen stated that he thought his daughters were “lying whores” and he hoped Saraswati would escape detection by law enforcement.

Allison Conn-Caffaro Drives Prakashanand Across Mexican Border


Information received from Customs and Border Patrol indicates Conn-Caffaro traveled from Nuevo Laredo to the United States on the following dates: March 17, 2011 (twice); April 18, 2011; and June 2, 2011. Conn-Caffaro traveled from Tijuana to the United States on November 30, 2011. Information obtained from this investigation indicates that Conn-Caffaro was in the Tamaulipas area of Mexico from March 07, 2011, to June 2, 2011. Conn-Caffaro made brief trips to the United States during that time period on the above referenced dates. Conn-Caffaro spent August 3, 2011, to November 30, 11 in the Rosarito Beach area of Mexico.

On April 14, 2011, Affiant and other U.S. Marshals Service personnel interviewed a known follower of Saraswati named Sylvia Ustoy in the Oak Hill Community of Austin, Travis County, TX. Ustoy is a resident of Radha Madhav Dham. Ustoy was captured on video at the United States Port of Entry in Laredo, TX driving a 2001 Toyota, Texas license plate (number blacked out) on March 18, 2011. When approached by investigators, Ustoy stated that she “hoped Swamiji would never be arrested.” Ustoy refused to answer any questions during the interview. Information received from Customs and Border Patrol indicates that Ustoy traveled from Nuevo Laredo into the United States on March 18, 2011, and March 24, 2011. Additionally, Ustoy traveled from Tijuana to the United States on June 23, 2011.

Marsha Kent, Infomercial Queen, Offers Support from India to Escape Team


Information received from Customs and Border Patrol indicates that a known follower of Saraswati named Carla Roberts traveled from Nuevo Laredo to the United States on March 18, 2011, with followers Sylvia Ustoy and Jenifer Deutsch. Additionally, Roberts traveled from Tijuana to the United States on the following dates: May 27, 2011, and November 7, 2011. Information provided to the U.S. Marshals Service personnel indicates the follower Marsha Kent sent Roberts the following email message on May 26, 2011:

“I thought you might find it interesting that SJ (short for “Swamiji,” meaning Saraswati) strategically kept me out of things, not that I could not be trusted, but to be doubly sure I was protected from what was to occur. I mention this because if some information does come to me, please call me if you have any thoughts. All I can say is if I can ever support, assist, or help you in any way, especially on this side, I am hear for you.” Kent was in India at the time of the email.

On August 25, 2011, Affiant, Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum and other U.S. Marshals Service personnel conducted a series of interview with followers of Saraswati at Radha Madhav Dham, which is located at 400 Barsana Road, Austin, Hays County, TX. During the interviews all of the members expressed a strong loyalty to Saraswati. There were a number of pictures of Saraswati on display throughout buildings and residences on the temple grounds. The members who were interviewed stated that they did not believe Saraswati was guilty of the convicted offenses, and they hoped he would evade capture and never go to prison. All members interviewed stated they did not have any knowledge of Saraswati since he failed to show up for the sentencing phase of the trial. The following people were interviewed: Jenifer Deutsch, Mary Maskell, Ram Persaud, Beatrice Sarnow, and Peter Melody.

Jenifer Deutsch and Dennis Wagner Engage in Suspicious Activity Together


Jenifer Deutsch (aka Vrinda Devi) is the public relations point of contact for Radha Madhav Dham in Austin, Hays County, TX. Information received from Customs and Border Patrol indicates Deutsch traveled from Nuevo Laredo to the United States on March 18, 2011 with Sylvia Ustoy. Additionally, Deutsch traveled from Tijuana to the United States on the following dates: June 2, 2011; June 22, 2022; June 22, 2011; August 4, 2011; October 23, 2011; and November 15, 2011. With the exception of the August 4, 2011 date, Deutsch traveled with fellow devotee Dennis Wagner from Tijuana on all of those dates. The cell phone of Deutsch was found to be in contact with numerous Nuevo Laredo and Tijuana phone numbers during those corresponding time periods. Travel documentation obtained by the U.S. Marshals Service indicates that Deutsch traveled to San Diego on Southwest Airlines Flight #740 on October 4, 2011, and stayed in the Rosarito Beach area of Mexico until October 23, 2011. Dennis Wagner was present with Deutsch in Mexico during that time period and during the November 15, 2011 trip.

Prior to leaving on October 8, 2011, Deutsch told other followers in Austin that she was going to Connecticut to visit her sick mother, and Wagner told other followers that he was traveling to Colorado. U.S. Marshals Service personnel received information containing emails from the account of (info blacked out) dated October 23, 2011 and October 24, 2011, in which Deutsch describes her trip with other followers. Deutsch stated in separate emails that her mother was dealing with “legal problems, miscommunication, anger, and grief.” Due to the fact Deutsch was in Mexico during this time and not in Connecticut to visit her mother, investigators in this case believe that Deutsch was referring to Saraswati when writing about her mother.

On August 26, 2011, a confidential source informed Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum that Sudhakari Devi is a preacher at an ashram located in Vrindavan, Uttar Pradesh, India. The confidential source advised that Sudhakari was one of the first preachers who worked under Saraswati when he became a leader for JKP. The confidential source further advised that the relationship with Saraswati occurred over a long period of time, and Sudhakari and Saraswati maintained a close bond as a result.

Preacher Sudhakari and Accountant Brenda Becker Involved in Handling Money to Fund the Escape


On August 30, 2011, United States Magistrate Judge Andrew Austin signed a search warrant for the email address of (name blackened out). Correspondence contained in this email account revealed two scanned, hand written letters from Kripalu Maharaj to Saraswati. Correspondence also revealed bank statements for Saraswati’s account with Axis Bank in India. The bank statements were sent by Sudhakari to Peter Spiegel, a known follower of Saraswati who signed a bond agreement for $10 million with the Hays County District Court that presided over Saraswati’s case. Additionally, an Axis bank statement for Saraswati was sent by Brenda Becker to Sudhakari on June 07, 2011. Becker is known to this investigation as being a financial officer at Radha Madhav Dham. Further email correspondence revealed that Sudhakari sent a number of medical documents from Saraswati’s doctors in India to Radha Madhav Dham devotees during the weekend Saraswati fled to Mexico. These documents listed extensive details about Saraswati’s medical conditions and summarized medical advice for those conditions. Additionally, Sudhakari used an email address of (address blacked out) to subscribe for this Gmail account. Activity in the Gmail account indicates that (address blacked out) is an active email address in use by Sudhakari.

On August 31, 2011, U.S. Marshals Service personnel interviewed a known follower of Saraswati named John Ancker at this residence in Phoenixville, PA. Information received from Customs and Border Patrol indicated that Ancker traveled from Nuevo Laredo to the United States on April 30, 2011. U.S. Marshals Service personnel who interviewed Ancker stated he was uncooperative and not forthcoming. Ancker stated he had not seen Saraswati since October 2010. A large shrine dedicated to Saraswati located in the residence was observed by U.S. Marshals Service personnel from outside of the residence.

Angela Gates (Prakashanand’s Criminal Legal Council) and Dr. Divyang Ayar (Corpus Christi Doctor) Linked to Escape


On September 16, 2011, U.S. Marshals Service personnel attempted to interview the mother of Allison Conn-Caffaro, Maureen Williams, in San Diego, CA. Williams immediately stated she knew where her daughter was and that she did not want to speak with investigators about the case. Willaims stated she would have an attorney contact U.S. Marshals Service personnel regarding this matter.

On September 28, 2011, U.S. Marshals Service personnel interviewed a known follower of Saraswati named Dr. Divyang Ayar in Corpus Christi, TX. Dr. Ayar was uncooperative regarding his involvement in the case at the beginning of the interview. Dr. Ayar was advised of his Miranda rights, and at that time he voluntarily gave the following information. Dr. Ayar stated that he donated a 2001 Ford Escort Texas license plate (number blacked out) to the JKP organization in February 2011. This vehicle was driven by Conn-Caffaro at the previous referenced border crossings on March 17, 2011; April 18, 2011; and June 2, 2011. Dr. Ayar stated that he was contacted by a known follower of Saraswati named Michael Roberts in June 2011, and Roberts informed him that Radha Madhav Dham no longer needed the vehicle for use. Dr. Ayar stated that he knew a woman named “Chitra” (Conn-Caffaro) was driving this vehicle. Dr. Ayar stated he was then instructed by Roberts to pick up the vehicle from a parking lot at the San Antonio International Airport. Dr. Ayar retrieved the vehicle and subsequently sold it shortly after that.

On October 12, 2011, Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum received a telephone call from a California based attorney identified as Angelyn Gates. Gates stated she was the attorney for Maureen Williams and gave no indication of a previous relationship she had with Saraswati. Gates asked a number of questions regarding the status of the Saraswati investigation. Gates stated she would agree to have a meeting take place between U.S. Marshal Service personnel and Williams. Gates stated the daughter of Williams, Conn-Caffaro, was not with Saraswati and had not assisted Saraswati in his flight to Mexico. After being informed of this conversation Affiant informed Deputy U.S. Marshal that Gates was a defense attorney for Saraswati during the child molestation trial in Hays County. It was decided at that time to cancel any further plans to discuss this case with Gates and Williams.

On December 1, 2011, Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum learned that Gates and Williams were in contact with the same Tijuana, Mexico telephone number during the week of November 22, 2011. Conn-Caffaro returned from Tijuana on November 30, 2011. On November 29, 2011, communication with Mexico creased for Gates and Williams. On November 29, 2011, Gates received a telephone call from India.

On December 21, 2011, U.S. Marshals Service personnel learned that the follower traveling with Saraswati, Vishwambhari Devi, had recently activated a life insurance policy in India with ICICI Prudential Life Insurance Company LTD.

On March 5, 2012, Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum interviewed a known follower of Saraswati named Dennis Wagner at his real estate business, United Country Real Estate in Driftwood, Hays County, TX. Wagner initially agreed to proceed with the interview. Wagner stated he did not believe Saraswati was guilty of the convicted offenses and that he had not seen Saraswati since the day of the sentencing on March 7, 2011. Information received from Customs and Border Patrol indicates Wagner traveled from Tijuana to the United States with Jenifer Deutsch on June 20, 2011; October 23, 2011; and November 2011, Wagner refused to answer any further questions and terminated the interview.

Prakashanand Escapes to India in November 2011 — After Nine Months of Hiding in Mexico


During the month of May 2012, Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum received information from two separate confidential sources who stated that Saraswati was located in India.

On June 12, 2012, Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum received information from a separate confidential source who recently visited the Bhakti Mandir temple in Mangarh, Uttar Pradesh, India. Mangarh is the birthplace of Kripalu Maharaj. The confidential source advised that he/she spoke in privagte with an ashramvasi at the temple who told him that Saraswati is safe under the protection of Kripalu, but that the location was secret due to concerns about law enforcement arresting Saraswati as well as negative media exposure JKP would receive in the event Saraswati was taken into custody.

On July 17, 2012, Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum received information from a confidential source who advised that Saraswati was currently in India. The confidential source further advised that Saraswati was able to obtain a fake passport while in Mexico and JKP handlers from India traveled with him from Mexico to India in 2011. This confidential source stated that Saraswati was living in close proximity to Kripalu Maharaj under security. This source further stated that while in Mexico, Saraswati changed his appearance by cutting his hair.

Based on Deputy U.S. Marshal Marcum’s experience as a fugitive investigator and both his and Affiants familiarity with computer records maintained by Yahoo! Inc. and other internet service providers, it is belief of both that records associated with this active e-mail account will provide valuable clues as to the current location of Saraswati.



As this document shows, corruption in Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat is alive and well — and runs deep and wide. From my experience, the one and only thing this fake-Hindu-spiritual organization is good at is organized crime.

What are your thoughts?

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Who Exactly is the Latest Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat Preacher at RadhaMadhav Dham USA? — Insider Reveals Secrets of “Swami Haridas”


Swami Haridas of Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat in Nepal. What exactly is he doing in Radha Madhav Dham USA?

There’s a new swami is in town — and at the formerly named Barsana Dham ashram (currently called Radha Madhav Dham.) “Swami Haridas” heralds from Nepal and is one of Kripalu’s many preachers in the field working to bring him warm bodies and cold hard cash. He’s been in and out of Radha Madhav Dham over the past few months, and is running a two-day program this weekend.

But who is this “Swami Haridas” exactly? I had the chance to speak with a person in India who knows the truth about many of the so-called preachers of JKP, including this man. Here is the scoop directly from my source — please warn everyone you know:
“The actual name of Swami Haridas is Hari Pandey. He has only a primary school education. He made fake certificates of degrees to go abroad. He used to do property business helping people buy and sell real estate in Kathmandu. HE WAS A PLAY BOY.

“He started attending Kripalu’s satsang after listening to lectures of Parikari in Kathmandu. He was actually attracted to her appearance rather than to the devotion. Eventually he became attracted to another girl named Sangita Pandey of BhatBhteni, Kathmandu, who was a good singer. She used to sing in the satsang, and her whole family was involved in JKP. They began an affair.

“Then other satsangis from Kathmandu objected to their behavior on the train while going to Mangarh from Kathmandu in October 1996. Then they got married, as there was no other option other than that. They couldn't have child after marriage because Hari Pandey is defective. Also because of the nature of Hari Pandey they often used to quarrel, and I saw them quarrelling in the ashram in Mangarh as Hari was falling for other girls.

“As Hari Pandey was expert in convincing people for selling and buying properties, he used his talent for recruiting money for ashram and he succeeded. He didn't have his own house, or even any money to pay for groceries. There after he got to stay at the ashram of Kathmandu freely. He bought some properties by collecting money in the name of the ashram. He engaged most of the satsangis in Nepal and got lakhs of rupees. He then became close to Kripalu and took over the Kathmandu ashram.

“Naresh Harjani was looking after the ashram before him, and he took it over by kicking out the main doner, Mr. Bhawnani (who died recently in USA). Now there are two groups in Kathmandu and Nepal. Those who go to Kathmandu ashram. A second group who are supporters of Naresh never go there, but are directly linked to the Mangarh ashram.

“The main job of Haridas and his wife was to mindwash the new girls and get them ready to be in front of Kripalu (when he visits Nepal). I have also got to know that while convincing girls to have sex with Kripalu, Hari Pandey says: "If I had a women's body I would have RAS with Maharajji." Because of his full support for all evil doings of ashram, he was made a pracharak of ashram to preach in Nepal, and to worked to get more and more people of higher society, like media and judges, involve. After becoming preacher Hari Pandey became Haridas. His wife always travels with him in Nepal.

“Haridas also has sex with new girls. Young girls are his weakness. But he chooses only those who do are poor and materially weak, and long for a luxurious life.”

By the way, if you are wondering why Haridas is making trips to Radha Madhav Dham now, rather than Mukundananda, it’s because Prakashanand never liked Mukundananda, so he doesn’t want him taking over “his ashram” now. Despite his ability to charm some people, Mukundananda is not without sin either. He apparently also likes the ladies.

Please resist the urge to put these people on a pedestal, believing they are holier than thou. Not only are they as corrupt as Kripalu Maharaj, but also it takes very little to become a preacher in this organization. The people are chosen for their ability to spread the scam, not for any pure devotional qualities.

It’s no surprise at all that the people who represent Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat are dishonest and corrupt. What else could you expect of an organization where the leader is among the world’s biggest sex addicts, child molesters, and scam artists?

Sunday, September 16, 2012

The Painful First-Hand Story of a Young Girl in India Who Was Raped byKripalu Maharaj


Kripalu in his bed, where he has raped uncountable young girls.

This week I received a letter that a young girl in India wrote about five years ago and sent to an ex-devotee of Kripalu Maharaj. This letter was forwarded to me with permission to publish it on my blog in order to continue educating people about the truth of the wicked Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat organization. However, I am not using her name, and you will understand why. I must warn you that this letter is very explicit and very disturbing.

The young woman who wrote it is Indian and confesses that she does not have a full grasp of English. I left her words as is, rather than correct them, because they are her words and they are very powerful. I do not want to adulterate them. I did add English translations of the Hindi phrases she used, which were words Kripalu said to her while raping her.

I know what I think of this. Please share your thoughts.

Dear brother,

My name is ------. Now I am living with my husband in Cuttack in Orissa. My request is please keep my name secret as it may destroy my happily married life. My husband does not know about past expirences with Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat. I will put in front of you in detail about the dark sides of this huge organisation.

In the name of Lord Srikrishn they initially attracting people with their nice musical chantings and authentic Vedic philosophy of Sanatan Vaidic Hindu Dharm. Anyone can be attracted after listening the philosophy of Jagadguru Kripaluji Maharaj. Once you entered their boundry their disciples just like dalals of dalal street pull you and make your mind wash to make you prepared for sexual relations with Kripaluji Maharaj.

My english is not so good. Still I will try my best to put everything in front of you.

I first listened him on Sanskar T.V. three years before. I became crzy about him to have darshan of him after listening tattva gyan form all scriptures. My parents objected. But still I went to their ashram in mangarh (Near Kunda,Dt/Pratapgarh,U.P.). I got very very impressed by their discipline and behaviour, especially when I hugged by Kripaluji Maharaj because i never expected that a great personality like him will hug me. At that time I thought that I am the luckiest in the world to have a so nice, great guru like Kripaluji. There I met his other disciples, some 5years..some 10 years....some 20 to 30 years in his satsang. I met other ladies who are living there since more than 10 years...most of them were from Orissa and Nepal. They became my friends and told me that Veda says that there is no diff between Guru and Bhagwan and do bhakti of guru like Bhagwan. They gave me hours of lecture to do sadhana. At that time I blindly believed everybody in the ashram and stayed there for a week.

On the 6th day in the ashram one of the ashram lady who is personal assistence of Kripaluji maharaj told me that the highest philosophy is to love god as your husband like gopis. Gopis loved Lord with kama bhav and they got chance in RAS with Srikrishn. As there is no difference between Guru and God .. and also you can see, can touch guru, not god, you should love guru in kama bhav. There is no harm in it. See..you are a lady and you cannot live a lonly life.You want sahara (support) in every field of life. For that you will marry a worldly material man who want your body only and you will get nothing after death, but if you love Kripaluji Maharaj and surrender yourself complitely in front of him you will be benefitted complitely in material world as well as spiritually. As by that time I was complitely influenced by the music, philosophy and attractive personality of KM (Kripaluji Maharaj) his assistants words touched my heart. I started thinking that He is god himself and I will live whole life in his ashram and will do sadhana to attain Divine Love of Srikrishan.

On the seventh day when I was returning I told KM that "I want to stay in ashram." He replied you need written permission from parents and at least 1 lakh rupees in your name. After that you may stay here." Than he hugged me tightly. This time I feel a little ackward but I didn't feel as his asst. told me before that he is the god himself.

I returned home with his sweet memories. I did not know that it is a hundred percent DHOKHA ...... cheating ...... making fool of innocents ..... playing with their BHAVANAS, their simplicities...... After comming home I quarrelled with my parents. Warned them if you don't allow me I will commit sucide. I want to live a good life like Mira bai. WHYyou object me...........Mira Bai was my idol ... I was very happy internally that at last I have got a chance to have Shikrishn in the form of Jagagguru and a great environment throughout my life without any worries, any tensions. At last my parents agreed and allowed me and made necessary arrangements for me to stay there.

Now I was very very happy just like I got a one crore lottery. This is the light side of my story. Now the dark side begans.

Ladies who are living there are given seva. Some looking after garden, some in publishing department, some in weaving wollen clothes, some doing stone work, some in kithens. I was given kitchen sewa. My duty was to assist kitchen incharge Subhadra aunti and Hansa didi. I was totally busy in the kitchen, even I could not know the date and day ...But I never got a chance to take thali into KM's room. Subhdra aunti and hansa go with thali's with prepared foods at time of lunch (at 7:45A.M) and dinner (at 3:15 P.M). I just peep from the door side how he is eating. I thought as I am a new comer and may be their sadhana is far better than me as they are very old -- living there since last 20 years. Some day I will get the chance to feed him.

But one thing I marked that at 11:00 A.M. (after Maharajji having a nap for 2 hours) when we prepare light break fast everyday that is taken by different different ladies who are living in the ashram before me. But nobody was allowed to peep from out side and the door was closed for 20 to 30 minutes. When I asked about this to my incharge she just burst on me.....and warned me not to ask anything and to thinking or uttering a word... I became more and more depressed as days passed. I missed my mother very much. Whenever I was allowed to talk to my parents their strict order was not to discuss what is going on in the ashram and just to say that I am O.K. After completing one month like this KM's asst. told me that I am going to feed Maharajji the next day at 11:00 A.M. I was a very happy that who I am respecting as a God is being fed by an ordinary JEEV like me. I could not sleep the whole night in joy. I was a little nervous too. So I asked one of the elders how to feed Maharajji.. she laughed at me.....and told me once you enter his room Maharajji's asst. will help you.

The next day when I went to M's room with food I saw M's asst. and other 3 girls are there before. Maharajji after finishing food moved his hand to others to go out and told me to stay there with him without any words. Everybody went out and M's asst. locked the door from inside. Then she went outside from the other side of the room and locked that from outside. I was so scared ....my heart satrted beating very fast..then M' said – “You are doing sadhana and loving me so much. TUM MERI PYARI AND MEIN TUMHRA PYARE. Aa gale lagja. (Translation: “You are my love and I'm your love. Come close to me and hug me.”)

At that time my head was eating circles, my intellect, mind completely empty.. not in mood to think anything.. Stand before him with head down looking on my toes. M' stand from his bed and hugged me tight. At that time he was telling that MEIN TUMKO BOHUT PYAR KARTA HUN TUM MUJHE PYAR KARO. (Translation: I love you so much, now you love me too.) Than he kissed my head, slowly comming down to my laps..... I don't know helplessly I didn't even utter a word at atht time. He held me very tight and kissed me for about 5 minuts in different parts of my body. HE was telling me TO TELL PYARE TUM MUJHE AISE PYAR KARTE ROHO. (Translation: Tell me my love that you keep loving me like this; in other words, he wanted her to tell him to keep doing whatever he was doing to her).

Then he ordered me to put off all cloths and sleep on his bed... At that time I was thinking that I am with god and having RAS with him. I did the same then MK put off his clothes. Then he slept on me and told me to tell him, PYARE TUMHARE LING MERE ANDAR RAKHHO. (Translation: Now my love put your private organ (penis) inside my private organs.) I repeated the same, he put his penis inside my secret organs I felt severe pain. Then he said don't worry everything will be O.K. Don't be scared....... for next 20 minutes I slept on his bed and he raped me again and again..... I was totally hypnotised at that time and quietly surrendered in front of him. After that he asked me to put on clothes and when I was ready to go out side he told me AAJ KA DIN YAD RAKHNA TUMHARA EK ALOUKIK PURUSH KE SATH SAMBHOG HUA HAI. (Translation: Always remember today's day that you have physical relation with very extraordinary man.)

I was feeling severe pain in my genital system and in my whole body. Slowly I moved from the room directly towords my bed. I just fall on my bed depressed. I slept for 5 hours. In the evening when I got up from the bed my other room mates came near me and watching me so depressed they tried to convinse me that every bhakta's aim is to have ras with Srikrishna and you got it so easily. You are very lucky............

I wanted to tell my mother everything but feared that what people will say in the society if they come to know this.. So I kept my mouth closed and after that day my turn came regularly after every 20 to 30 days... I dicided in my mind that this may be my destiny .... Now what to do...... When my mother came after 2 months she was happy looking my charming face.. But in a doubt she asked ARE YOU O.K.?...... I could not stop my tears... She guessed what is going with me. Still I didn't tell her anything because of my self reputation...... (I myself had choosen and quarreled with her to stay in ashram and there was a good reputation of me among our relatives that I am living a sacred divine life in Vrindavan.... This fight in my innerself became more and more panic. There in the ashram I saw all the ladies in the same condition. All are jealous with each other and quarelling with each other in simple matters just like badly materilists.

Now I began to think myself with Gopis' of dwapar yug. I found neither me nor other ladies are comparable to gopis in any way. They were divine personalities with full knowledge of all Veda's and are beyond MAYA TATTVA where as I and others who are living here are materilists and with all MANASIKA VIKARA's (mentally sick) like KAMA, KRODH, LOBH..etc. So I decided to left ashram in my mind.... and came home. I told my mother that the extreme climete in Vrindavan is not suitable for my body. So I will stay in our house and do sadhana. Any how my parents agreed.

If I will write like this it will be a novel. Since last 7 months I am living a married life. But my near and dear people arround our society still think that I am great. But I know that I have been cheated.. and If I say anything to anybody that will bring me unexpected danger in my married life.

But I am writing you because you people have the capacity to check other people being cheated like me. I will give you what ever detail information you need about any persons in the Ashrams of JKP. One case in 1992 when MK is sent to jail for there was case of rape which lasted for 13 years is won by him showing his old age. But I swear he is capable of doing sex at this stage. His times for sex in the ashrams are 11:30 A.M and/or 4:00 P.M.

His asst. are NILU DIDI (Origin -Nagpur), HANSA DIDI (From Hyderabad-her sister also lives there named KANCHAN who is asst. to the eldest daughter of MK). His kitchen incharge are-SUBHADRA AUNTI and SHARADA (who was a prostitute and was a teacher in Berhampur, Orissa -living there since 2 years after resining from her service as teacher).

He has 3 daughters and 2 sons.-
1.Vishakha Tripathy(BAdi didi)-asst. is Madhavi and Kanchan
2.Shyama Tripathy(Majhli didi )-asst. is ---New lady I don't know name
3.Krishna Tripathy (Choti didi )- asst. is --- -do-
The above are inchares of three mazor ashrams Vrindavan (Shyama Shyam Dham), Mangarh(Sadhana Bhavan Trust and Barsana (Rangilee Mahal) respectively. They always stay with Maharajji and Ammaji (Maharajji's wife) and travell with them where ever they go all are unmarried. All three have kept 3 charted accountants to operate ashrams. They are Ram (Originally, officially-Rajnish Puri Canadian native) and LAKHAN (Ram's younger brother______ Both are Kitchen incharge SUBHADRA's son) and NITIN GUPTA (from Delhi- He stays in Barsana ashram).

All CA's operate all transactions of ashram in Delhi ashram (Radha Govind Trust). All are very expert and forward. There are 2 other people who help 3 daughters are -
1. Driver of Maharajji-Nagraj- (He was working in ahotel in Mumbai-appointed as driver since last 11 years)
2. Sanjay-from Banaras-working in ranbaxy office at BAnaras
3. Swami radhika Sharan (lives in ashram since 35 years-suppose to have sexual relation with all three)

Two sons of MK are married,
1. Ghanshyam Tripathy (People call him as BADE BHAIYA) have 3 sons (They live in a luxurious 3 fllored building in Lakhnow built by ashram. Their duty is to travelled by three diff. cars behind ladies.
2.Balkrishna Tripathy (Chote Bhaiya)-Lives in Mumbai with his one son and one daughter.
But These two sons have bank accounts with crores of transaction. All is mentained by 3 doughters of maharajji.

Maharajji's Manager is Swami Prakashanand who has establissed BARSANA DHAM (Radharani temple) in Austin, Texas in USA. He has made and donated that Rangeeli Mahal ashram in Barsana, mathura to maharajji's 3rd daughter, but originally he is doing everything. The 3 daughters are always busy in collecting nice clothes and diamond jewleries from abroad. Prakashanand's asst. is BISWAMBHARI. She always stays with him. Now a days Prakashnand is suffering from Prostate gland cancer.

Next important person is Swami Mukundananda (His reputation is very good in societies of Orissa, Nepal, Gujrat)___ but he is also involved in sexual relations with the girl's who are living in ashram.

Now the stage of all girls if anyone see from outside look great but originally they are with a false fruit (i.e. MITHYA PRASANSA (to flatter) FROM WORLDLY PEOPLE that they are living a godly life).

At last with a hope that you will start investgation on it. My last request please don't expose my name. For any further details you contact by mail I will answer hiding from my husband.

Signed,
A poor girl

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Transformation After a Cult — The Freedom to Be Authentically Me


I can't stop smiling while enjoying dinner at an Austin restaurant on a Saturday night.

After 15 years of force fitting my personality into a process that I was told would lead me to God, I ended up in the darkest, dankest pit imaginable: My “gurus” were frauds and child molesters.

Shortly after I moved out of my one room in a group home in the ashram, I had a chiropractic appointment. I’d been seeing the chiropractor for five years and we’d had a few discussions over the years, usually about how I needed to relax more (perhaps take a vacation) and get more sleep to help cure the raging migraines that had taken over my life.

After adjusting my neck, he looked at me with genuine delight on his face and said, “Wow. You have really changed.”

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“You’re a different person.”

“Really? In what way.” I was thrilled at his unexpected declaration, and curious to know exactly what he meant.

“You’re smiling, your bubbly, your glowing. You used to be so quiet and withdrawn, and you never really smiled. It’s like you’ve come alive. I’m blown away.”

“Wow!” I said, smiling. I was blown away too by his glowing commentary.

“I have only seen such a dramatic transformation one other time: When a drug addict kicked his habit.”

Recognizing My Transformation


I left my chiropractor’s office floating on air. I knew that I felt better since leaving my oppressive cult: I truly felt reborn. But to have someone else recognize my transformation made me extra joyful.

While his reaction buoyed me even higher than I was already at being free of the cult, it also reminded me of how far I’d come from being that perpetually sad spiritual seeker.

But then, what other outcome is there for a person who joins an unnatural, closed community that takes away their individuality, eliminates their freedom of speech, and rules their lives like an overbearing psychotic parent? There is only one outcome possible in this environment: A deconstruction of yourself and your identity, a diminishment of your self worth, and an infantilization of your personality. This was exactly the result of the rigid, dogmatic belief system I lived within for 15 years.

The Freedom to Transform


Whether it’s called God realization, self-realization, or whatever, people on a spiritual search are ultimately looking to be transformed. However, any rigid structure of any religion, or spiritual path, or ideology boxes us in and diminishes us, instead of doing the one thing it needs to do: Free us to truly transform.

My transformation came only after my body, mind, and soul were outside of the gates of my former guru’s ashram. As I drove away from his gated hell for the last time, I rolled down the windows in my car, turned up the radio, and sang loudly all the way to my new home. This was something I never would have done while living there, because I never was happy.

Once out, my transformation continued in various stages, including three months of debilitating grief. But even the grief was a necessary step in getting over and moving beyond my negative experienced. In fact, the four years it took me to get completely over getting conned by fake spiritual leaders were the most profoundly transformative period of my entire life.

Now I understood where everything I ever wanted existed: Within myself.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Former Insider Makes an Offer to All Victims of Kripalu Maharaj, Leader of Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat

The following comment was posted on this website in the comments section by a concerned person who knows the Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat (JKP) organization very very well. Please take his message seriously and spread the word. Let's see what we can do to expand the message and get to the bottom of the complete truth of JKP, Kripalu Maharaj, Prakashanand Saraswati (wherever he may be hiding), all JKP preachers, and anyone who helps them commit their crimes, which include child molestation. Thank you.

Thanks for your good work.


I would like to reflect upon a comparison of two organizations with similar, though not identical situations. Both are cult-like environments. Both have a glorified leader who is viewed by adherents as a god man. Both have aided and abetted enduring child molestation by leaders of the organization.


I am talking about Penn State University and Barsana Dham / Radha Madhav Dham / JKP. Though a comparison with the Catholic Church might also be appropriate. Maybe another time.


But let us look at how both organizations have handled the situation.


Penn State has managed, at least, to finally openly adjudicate the crimes of their past leaders in a reasonably fair and transparent manner. They have acknowledged the failings and are preparing for the consequences.


BD/RMD/JKP , on the other hand, have covertly helped their convicted leader to abscond and have taken an Orwellian approach to wiping out his past existence, in their preferable view of history.


Both of these reactions provide us with real evidence about the true nature of the respective organizations. Such an analysis will yield a result that is fairly close to the real truth. We can say that Penn State does have a core democratic and legal administration. We can say that they are truly interested in the future of their academic community.


We can also clearly discern that BD/RMD/JKP are totalitarian organizations where complete adherence to the organization’s dogma is required for participation. The facts include substantial and undeniable evidence of a long history of sexual abuse within the organization. Criminal proceedings against both primary the leaders of the organization have been prosecuted or are pending in several countries. There are claims of financial exploitation against the organization.


This shows us that BD/RMD/JKP are very clearly criminal and dangerous organizations. BD/RMD/JKP neither recognizes nor adheres to the laws and constitution of the nations in which they operate, including the U.S. Their greatest victims are their very own adherents, who are blind followers that have given up any hope of survival outside the organization. There is a significant attrition within the ranks, and those leaving the organization after having witnessed the criminal and offending acts. This means that BD/RMD/JKP must constantly recruit new people.


Therefore, in an effort to prevent any future damage by BD/RMD/JKP, it is imperative that those who have been expelled come forward and tell their true stories. I will gladly offer to provide and arrange legal counseling for anyone who steps forward. Your full discretion is guaranteed. The goal is to record and catalog testimony from a large number of individuals from around the globe. Those from outside the U.S.A. are also encouraged to get in touch.


Thank you.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Official Word from Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat is that PrakashanandSaraswati has "Left the Earth Planet"


Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat helped this man escape justice.

Someone passed on this information to me today. One of Kripalu Maharaj's preachers was giving lectures in Dallas, Texas, recently. An elderly couple walked up to him afterwards and asked him: "What is going on at Barsnaa Dham? Where is Prakashanand Saraswati?"

He looked at them with a straight face and stated: "He's left the earth planet."

What lies won't they tell?

First of all, if he were dead, they would produce legal documentation so that the law would not keep hunting him down. He is, after all, still a fugitive from justice.

Secondly, the official word from the U.S.A. ashram, confirmed by several sources, is that he slipped out of Mexico with a disguise and fake passport. Now he presumed to be hiding in India or Nepal. And according to my sources he is "well protected."

Third, where is his long-time companion, Vishwambari Devi, who is also missing? Did she "die" too? Or is she hiding out with him in some remote village on the other side of the world?

Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat is an organization that will help a convicted felon get away, hide him, and then lie about it.

The next best question to ask is: who exactly helped him escape, starting the day he left Hays County, Texas?

Really, spiritual place, isn't it?

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat is a "Dark, Dark Place"

Someone recently told me the following story.
"When I was in Vrindaban one time, I was standing  with a Swami on the roof of an ashram building looking over Kripalu's ashram. I asked him what the Hindi words on Kripalu's ashram said. He said, 'Shyama Shyam Dham.' I asked him what that meant. He said, "A dark, dark place."



Kripalu Maharaj being arrested in Trinidad. He is using someone else's cane to fake being infirmed, as he never used one. Just another example of his dark tricks.Someone recently told me the following story:"WHen I was in Vrindaban one time, I stood on the roof of a temple over looking Kripalu's ashram. I asked the Swami next to me what the Hindi words on the ashram wall said. He said, 'Shyama Shyam Dham.' I asked him what that meant. He said, 'A dark, dark place.'"

This Swami clearly knew the truth about Kripalu's organization, as do many others in Braj. I've heard other stories of people in the Braj District of India knowing the truth about him. He is not liked anywhere in Braj. Why? Because he runs a dark, dark organization.

The darkness of Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat includes:

  • Raping underage girls. This is an activity that has been going on since he started his "guru" career in the 1950s. She was one of his many sex partners when she was young. Although he was arrested twice, he got off both times. So, he has never been held accountable for these crimes. The first time he got off in the corrupt India judicial system. The second time in the corrupt Trinidad judicial system. However, there is currently another rape case being investigated in the U.S.A.

  • Engaging in sexual activities everyday in his very own "sex factory" with willing adult devotees, and surprising those who don't know with molestation and sex. As one higher-up woman told me, "You never know what will happen when you go into his bedroom." Indeed, I've heard of everything from touching to digital rape to blow jobs.

  • Squeezing every dime he can possibly get from people. Typically, he "charges" hundreds of dollars for anything from giving you a bite of his food to selling you items such as jewelry and clothes that others have given him. Other times he just demands the money. Whenever a group of devotees call him to say hello, he talks briefly, but always manages to instruct the group to send him several thousand dollars.

  • In JKP ashrams, devotees are worked to the bone, doing everything from cleaning, to cooking, to construction -- all for free, and all in the name of "seva." Meanwhile, there is little time for sufficient rest. Which enhances the ability to control a person.

  • Strong-tactics by his many preachers around the world to get more people to follow them, so they can also squeeze them for every dime, and bring Kripalu more girls and money. The preachers can only go visit Kripalu in India if they bring him several thousands of dollars.

  • Threats and intimidation of anyone who leaves. This is why so many people have left quietly over the years, and never spoken out. They are all afraid of what could happen to them once they escape.

Thousands of people follow Kripalu Maharaj with the fervor of people afflicted with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Only a few who are in deep will ever wake up, accept the truth, and get out. They are too addicted to and brainwashed by the JKP propaganda. The rest just resign themselves to the steady abuses, believing Kripalu is God walking on earth and so they must put up with everything, the abuse, monetary excesses, and sexual activities, to attain the divine world.

The sad reality is that these rabid fans are destroying their lives, and the lives of their families who want them out of this destructive organization. Meanwhile they are helping to make Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat stronger -- and darker.

Monday, August 13, 2012

The Authentic Guru-Disciple Tradition in Hinduism – A Discussion by Dr.Madhu P. Godsay

Dr. Madhu P. Godsay, a life-long Hindu and business professional living in the United States, graciously offered to write an Afterward for my book, Sex, Lies, and Two Hindu Gurus. Years ago, he and his wife met one of Kripalu Maharaj's many preachers in New York City, Parikari. Like many Hindus, they were happy to find someone who could sing shlokas and give discourses on Hindu topics. However, it did not take long for them to recognize the deception and wrong motives of a Kripalu preacher. Dr. Godsay and his wife immediately stopped attending the satsangs. Later, in Austin, he visited Prakashanand Saraswati at his new ashram in Austin, Texas. When he recognized the style of satsang as that of Kripalu's and saw Kripalu's name mentioned on the chants, he questioned Prakashanand. Prakashanand denied even knowing Kripalu. This was in the early 1990s right after Kripalu had been arrested for raping two underage girls in India. Dr. Godsay's discussion in my book (posted here) presents an excellent perspective on the vital importance of verifying the validity of claims made by so-called "gurus" before getting involved with them.

Afterward for Sex, Lies, and Two Hindu Gurus by Dr. Madhu P. Godsay



First, verify the authenticity, purity, and legitimacy of any person calling themselves a guru, before you put your spiritual well-being in their hands.

In the preceding pages of this book (Sex, Lies, and Two Hindu Gurus), you read the story of the Barsana Dham ashram, the two JKP "gurus," and the experiences of this author. It is natural to feel disappointed, angry, and frustrated when we meet people possessing demonic dispositions. It is our misfortune when we fatefully get involved with such people, who will stop at nothing when it comes to lust, power, insatiable desires, and money. These types of people strive to amass, by unfair means, hoards of money and other things for the enjoyment of their sensual pleasures.

All religious traditions suffer from these types of guileless people, who constantly deceive people and prey on the innocent and gullible believers. The exploitation goes on, whether it is a religion or any other organization. These people, posing as “gurus,” are beyond any conscious ethics and morals. In most cases, therefore, it is not the tradition that is at fault. It is the fault of these deceptive personalities, who are exploiting the people who come to them and the traditions in which they faithfully believe.

It is my intention to describe, briefly, the authentic guru-shishya parampara (guru-disciple tradition), which dates back to literally thousands of years in India. It is still alive and well in India to this day. However, this tradition is not monopolized by India. The Western world has also seen the epoch of teacher-student relationships, which existed in Greece in the fourth century B.C., such as the famous triad of Socrates-Plato-Aristotle.

Although the word “guru” is used very loosely today to denote an expert in any particular field, it is mainly related to spirituality. In Sanskrit, the letter “gu” stands for darkness (in other words, ignorance) and the letter “ru” means that which removes the darkness. Thus, a guru is a teacher who removes the ignorance (darkness) from his disciple and helps him evolve into a person with appropriate spiritual knowledge.

Shishya” means disciple. The root of this Sanskrit word is “shas” meaning to teach, instruct, or provide a discipline. Traditionally, the student is seeking knowledge, particularly spiritual knowledge. He or she desires knowledge, and is ready and willing to follow a teacher’s instructions and discipline. The teacher, on the other hand, is the wellwisher of the disciple, is capable of imparting the knowledge, and is of clean character and above worldly affairs. The place where teaching takes place is called an ashram, which should be a quiet, simple place, away from the city environment, and conducive for spiritual development. Typically, the teacher and student are celibates. No material exchanges and transactions of any kind take place between them. This fact is a very important aspect of this relationship in Hindu tradition. Otherwise, it opens the door for exploitation of the student by the teacher.

This lack of a business-type relationship between the student and guru is essential. The student should never put his trust and devotion in a teacher who requests anything, either money, possessions, or anything physical. Once the student has found such a desire-less, non-self-serving teacher, only then can the student have confidence in the teacher’s capability and show respect for his knowledge. This relationship must remain pure for the entire duration of the relationship.

It is very important that this relationship remains pure. The student should be seeking nothing else but knowledge, and the guru should be taking nothing from the student. The student’s “surrender” to a guru should be based on the secure knowledge that he or she is not being taken advantage of or exploited by the guru.

What’s more, it’s important to understand that the student’s trust and devotion are not supposed to be based on blind faith or an expectation of miracles from the guru. Trust in the guru is supposed to be verifiable. In other words, there must be clear proof that the teacher actually possesses spiritual knowledge and is capable of imparting it. Without veracity, a person posing as a guru can say or do anything.

There are various famous pairs of guru-shishya in Hindu scriptures. In the Upanishads, one finds many philosophical dialogues between teachers and students. For instance, in the Mundakopanishad, the creator teaches his son Atharva, and Atharva teaches his disciple Angiva, and so on and so forth. Another famous scriptural pair is Lord Krishna and his disciple Arjuna in the Bhagavad Gita. In modern India, various saints such as Ramakrishna Paramhansa, Ramana Maharshi, Swami Chinmayananda, Swami Dayananad, etc., have imparted knowledge to hundreds of their disciples.

In India, Hindu children learn that their mothers and fathers are their first gurus. Then other gurus follow throughout their lives, including a spiritual guru. The highest guru is the one who teaches and gives the experience of “tat twam asi,” meaning, “You are Bhrahman (God).” Guru Dattatreya was once asked by King Yadhu the secret of his happiness and the name of his guru. He said atman (self) is my guru, yet I learned wisdom from nature.

Gurus can be roughly divided into two main classes:

  1. Bhakti (devotion) tradition, which is related to loving a form of god.

  2. Gyan (knowledge) tradition, which is related to impersonal devotion.

The bhakti form of the guru-shishya relationship generally incorporates:

  • Devotion to the guru as a divine figure.

  • The belief that such a guru will eventually impart moksha, peace, or divine power to the shishya.

  • The belief that the shishya, with strong devotion and preparedness, will gain the merit.

The danger in the bhakti tradition lies in the choice of a guru. There is real danger that ignorance and blind faith can mislead a shishya from what he or she is really seeking. In the gyan-based relationship, there is less danger of deceit, because the student does not worship the guru as God.

Some learned and God-realized people, like J. Krishnamurti and Lahiri Mahasaya, refused to allow their followers to organize any kind of organization or sampraday around them. Their relationship was strictly based on the exchange of knowledge. The guru’s only goal is to help the shishya accomplish his or her spiritual advancement via his or her own ability to look within from a healthy, unattached perspective.

In the annals of guru-shishya tradition there are various types of sampradayas (organizations). There are the demonic types—like the Bernie-Maddox-type, which prey on people’s innocence, beliefs, and gullibility. This is what we witnessed with the Barsana Dham episode, and its fake “gurus,” who were clearly only interested in exploiting people.

However, despite the people with ulterior motives acting as gurus, having wrong intentions, and no true knowledge to impart, the tradition of the teacher-student relationship in spiritual advancement has endured over thousands of years—and will continue to endure long into the future. With so many calling themselves “guru” today, it is more important today than ever before for every student seeking a guru to hold that guru up to the standards that have endured through the ages: true knowledge, right motivation, and pure intentions

Om, Shanti, Shanti, Shanti

Peace, Peace, Peace.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Can a 90-Year-Old Guru Still Have Sex?

The man I formerly called “guru” looks like hell.

In a recent video, Kripalu Maharaj’s face is bloated and blotchy, like a rotten potato. He shuffles when he walks. And he looks like he is miserable. Chances are, he’s on his last leg.

I hope all this means he can no longer molest and rape young girls – finally.

However, much of the damage that he has been capable of doing in his long life is already done. Thousands of young girls have already suffered at the hands (and other body parts) of this monster over the past several decades.

As one woman told me about girls molested and raped by him:



“There are kids who were involved in this organization with their parents who have end up drinking heavily, doing drugs, or getting involved in gangs. This HAS to stop.”




This result is common among children who have been compromised sexually. They end up with a wide range of problems, from promiscuity to drug addictions.

Some people have a hard time believing that Kripalu has had so much sex with so many women and young girls for so long. After all, they say, how can an old man “have sex”?

First of all, sex with Kripalu is not limited to the basic act of sex that we typically think of. There are many things a creepy old man can do to a young girl.

Secondly, the thing that normal people don’t realize is that Kripalu does not operate by normal rules, because he is a sociopath. He lives in his own twisted mental state, where he is a god and everyone is here only to serve him. For him, sex isn’t even about pleasure or desire. It’s about control. This is true for many sexual deviants, like him. It’s difficult for normal people to understand this. But not understanding the truth has helped Kripalu continue his crimes unabated.

Thirdly, he’s been raping and molesting young girls for decades – not just since he’s been an old man. In 1991, after he was arrested for rape, an Indian newspaper gave a detailed account of his life, including this report:



“While giving a lecture, Kripalu saw a beautiful girl in lecture hall. And told his servant to take that girl to his bedroom. When she was in his room. Kripalu closed the door. He ordered the girl to take off all her clothes. She got scared and asked why. Kripalu said, ‘I am giving you prem dhan. If you don’t do it, something bad will happen to you.’ She got scared and took off all of her clothes. He raped her. This was in 1970. In this way, Kripalu gave prem dhan to many young village girls. 

Educated young girls were also getting caught in the trap to get the prem dhan. There was a line to get the prem dhan.”




I just spoke with an Indian man who left the Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat cult after six years. He said that he started to become uncomfortable when he visited Barsana Dham (Radha Madhav Dham) during Kripalu’s visits in 2005 and 2007. He thought the emphasis on money collection was obscene.

But things got even more obscene when his wife was invited into charan seva ("body pressing" in the privacy of Kripalu’s bedroom). He said, “She witnessed another woman putting her hands up under Kripalu’s dhoti and 'pressing' his privates. She was in shock. She told me immediately after leaving his bedroom. I was also in shock. They knew we were upset and tried to make us talk to Prakashanand. But we left the ashram the next morning and left the organization for good.”

Despite this experience, this man still had questions about Kripalu’s ability and desire to engage in sex. I had to tell him the gory details about what Kripalu does in secrecy in his bedroom, including the belief by many that Kripalu takes Viagra. (I describe Kripalu’s bedroom activities in detail in my book, Sex, Lies, and Two Hindu Gurus.)

Now he will be turning 90 soon, and hopefully no longer be able to molest children. But that is still not the point.

The point is that he has already hurt many, many thousands of young girls, and done significant damage to their bodies, minds, and souls. These girls have to live with the memory of being violated by this creepy man for the rest of their lives. Who knows what impact it will have on their lives, what issues they’ll suffer as a result, or what kinds of chronic nightmares they have.

The best thing we can do now is to honor these women by believing their stories of abuse, not questioning them, and not making excuses for a sick old man who claims to be god, but who behaves worse than an animal wallowing in mud.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Today is Going to be a Beautiful Day

After I opened my eyes this morning, I looked out my large bedroom window at the blue sky and watched the wind gently blow the leaves on the trees.

Then I breathed a sigh of relief. After all, I’ve come a long way!

Four years ago today, I opened my eyes for the first time in my first home outside of the confines of the Barsana Dham ashram (aka Radha Madhav Dham). April 20, 2009, was my first day of freedom after 15 years of captivity. Back then I was crippled emotionally by my horrible cult experience.

Today is so different. Now, I feel healthy, lighthearted, and, most of all, free. Today I have complete freedom to plan my day the way I chose.

If I were still living in the ashram, I’d have to be working my fingers to the bone and breaking my back to help put on today’s event: the mela (fair). What the visitors don’t realize is how much work is expected of the JKP devotees – every single time there is a public event. This is all free labor donated by the blind faith followers – year after year. It’s actually a form of slave labor.

But on this day I am not a slave any longer to delusional men and women dressed in orange, pretending to be holy, like Kripalu Maharaj and Prakashanand Saraswati. Today I am free.

I have planned to visit farmers’ markets for fresh fruits and vegetables, walk the tree-lined path around the shimmering Town Lake, stop by a friend’s house for a late afternoon get-together, and attend an aerial arts performance this evening.

Yes, I’ve come a long, long way!

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Book Exposing the Truth About Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat is Already Helping Ex-JKP Devotees – Support is Wonderful!

When I started writing my book four years ago, I had one primary goal: To reach out to people hurt by this cult and help them get out and heal from their experience. I believe that no one should feel isolated as a result of their involvement in JKP. We should all come together and be a support system for each other. I am happy to report that the book is starting to achieve this goal.

I launched my book one week ago today and I have already heard from many people who have thanked me for telling the truth about the Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat cult, Kripalu Marharaj, and Prakashanand Saraswati. Many of the readers so far are ex-devotees who have felt used and abused by JKP. Some are relatives of people who have been lured into the cult. Both groups want to read the book to learn about the JKP cult – either to heal or to help a family member get out.

The emails I have received have taught me how important it is for people who have been hurt by a cult to reach out to others who have experienced the same thing. Every person who was conned by this cult has a story of pain, estrangement, and grief. But now they also have a source of support from other ex-members. Every letter breaks my heart that any of us had to experience the awful experience of JKP.

I would like to share a few of the heart-tugging emails. Here are excerpts from just some of the people who have written to me in the past week:

Hi Karen,
One of the JKP preachers has been in my life since I was 10 years old. In Barsana Dham, I was called one morning to go to Kripalu’s room for the "private time" & was molested by him. I also saw many other girls who were visiting from other parts of the country go in & come out crying & devastated. This all happened without the knowledge of any parents.
I was 22 when I was molested the 2nd time. To be frank I was like a child too because I could not do anything about it. I felt like It was a MUST to be spending time with maharaji because that is when you know that you are going anywhere in your spiritual life.
Even my family members are devotees. The only way I can get my parents & my brother to even listen to me is when I tell them about children being raped & assaulted in this organization. There are kids who were involved in this organization with their parents and have ended up drinking heavily, doing drugs or getting involved in gangs. There is just way too many lives destroyed. This HAS to stop.
Thank you for writing the book & exposing these people. I spite people who do ANY harm to kids especially.
Thank you for listening. I truly appreciate it.

Dear Karen,
I was a JKP devotee since 5 years, never visited Barsana Dham but went to India 3 times. Since my first moment I entered the ashram in Mangarh, I sensed something very wrong, something very contradictory with spirituality was happening there. I tried hard to understand the spirituality behind what my eyes were seeing. Each time I failed, all I could see there was a crazy effort to make us give whatever we have and the guru's hedonism. I even witnessed kripalu replacing a young girl's hand on his privates during charan seva as they started to allow men to this seva to prove it was OK. I congratulate you about your book which also helped me believe in my own feelings at the first place.
Best regards.

Hi Karen:
Well, I just finished your book. Can't believe I've read through it in less than two days but it's a subject I think emotionally I needed to dive into. I was introduced to Prakash when I was 21. I was young, very spiritual and very impressionable. A month later I attended one of the annual intensives and Prakash began his tactics of recruiting me. Giving me loads of attention, requesting I speak to him in private, etc.
When Kripalu’s first visit to BD was announced I jumped on the band wagon and got tickets to stay in residence for 4-5 days. I arrived at BD the day after he touched down. That was the start of my decline in devotion. Here is how it went: I had not even walked through the front doors of the temple when an Indian man approached me and asked me who I was, where I was from and how I know Kripalu. I briefly explained and he grabbed my bags, whisked me onto a golf cart and took me up Barsana Hill to the top. There he stopped, turned around and looked at me and I'll never forget what he said: "You're going to see a lot of money being thrown around the next few days, a lot of money being waved in front of Maharaji and you are expected to give as much money to him as you can. This may seem a bit strange but this is how in India devotees pay respect to their Gurus." I never went back to BD. After 10 years of blind devotion I realized that something was very wrong.
Much Love

Hi Karen,
My wife is currently involved with Barsana Dham and has been affiliated with them for the past several years. The contents of your book resonates with what is going on with her and I really appreciate you writing about your experiences. Hopefully I can get some insight on how to pull her out of this mess after reading the details of your book. She's been under the influence of these people and they've basically brainwashed her to the point of extorting money which I've been saving for the past 30 years for our retirement.

Dear Karen,
I just finished reading your book last night. All I can say is wow... and amazing. You have clearly exposed the inner dealings of the JKP, and the true personalities of Prakash and Kripalu. As you said in your book, they are truly Rakshasas, Demonic Entities who have manifested in this age of darkness to feed upon the innocent minds and faith of countless people. I applaud you for this. By exposing them, and publishing this book, you’ve clearly illustrated that they could never have broken you, rather you have broken them. I just hope and pray that more people will read your book, and that their intellects will awaken, and that they will learn to discern truth from falsehood.
Good Luck! Much Peace and Light.


I hope to expand this message of hope and healing out to the entire universe of ex-members who have left JKP alone, hurt, and afraid – and those who have not yet left, but who want to. I am here to tell you that you are not alone – you can leave the abusive world of JKP, and you can live a wonderful life!